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photo class [Feb. 2nd, 2007|08:48 am]
katie
im sitting in second period looking for photos
by diane arbus. huh. kenny's gone. sunday 2 weeks
ago kenny tried to kill himself. i keep denying
that it was really a suicide attempt but it was.
he was in the pshyc ward in junction for a week
while i was in chicago. his home. his place and
it hurt to be at all the places he loved without
him while he sat in fucking grand junction colorado,
listening to doctors telling him he's crazy. but it's
all relative. it's all a fable. "since he hurts there
must be a problem and therefore a solution." and
yesterday with out kenny was like a birthday from
a fairytale. all of the "OOOOHHHH... it's your
birthday.... HHHHAAAAPPPPYYYYY birthday katie."
began to make me realize how few people really
care about anything not just my b-day... that
was just a realization.
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(no subject) [Dec. 1st, 2006|12:25 pm]
katie
Artist: Gillian Welch
Song: Revelator
Album:
[" " CD]

Darling remember from when you come to me
that I'm the pretender,
I'm not what I'm supposed to be
but who could know, lf I'm a traitor?
times the revelator, revelator.

They caught the katy, and left me a mule to ride.
The fortune lady came along she walked beside,
but every word seemed to date her.
Times the revelator, the revelator.

Up in the morning up and on the ride.
I drive in to corning and all the spindles whine
and ever day is getting straighter.
Times the revelator the revelator

Leaving the valley and fucking out of sight
I'll go back to cali where I can sleep out every night
and watch the waves and move the fader.
Queen of fakes and Imitators
Times the revelator.
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life dictated [Nov. 10th, 2006|10:13 pm]
katie
[IT FEELS |touchedfeeling bold]
[NOISE |ani- both hands]

mum yelled at me for wanting to take a shower. i was so cold that my breasts held
themselves in place. i feel like she is dictating my life. yes, her blessings've been
counted but im still stuck in her world. call me bubble girl if you would.
riley turned 16. shes going to europe. i teared when she kissed her mum and dad.
disfuntional, separated, distant, near non-existant, paradoxical, bland. this is
my family. a few years ago my aunt became enthralled w/ something i did and
so i guess our family's lack of... oomph is my fault. but i didnt do anything
wrong. not by an open minded standard. on the "rich, boring, money mongers" scale
i should have been sent to an institution. no fuck that. i was justified... and still
am. the only thing in the entire world that would have made this situation worse
was if i ended up being gay. ill say no more. i had an apiphany a few days ago. after
kayo came to talk to me. i decided that love is my pace maker, my verb if you would.
every body wants it, yearns for it. is it worth me living my life for love or is it
sub-insanity? nay for it being ridiculous and yay for it being my yellow brick road.
im going to san francisco. i plan to flaunt, strut, beam, exemplify the female kind and
have a fucking GREAT time.
screw dictators!
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lost [Oct. 30th, 2006|04:48 pm]
katie
[IT FEELS |curiousbeautiful]

monday. october 30th 2006. ive never been in a better place.
physically, mentally, emotionally.
im so pleased with where ive lead myself. or maybe where
circumstance has lead me.
i guess im alone. but im also content.
im goignt to san francisco for thanksgiving.
im looking forward to that and everything gay
implied.

"Until that night, I had never had any feeling down there at all. I was, a kind of wooden doll, without blood in my body. But that night, that night I
started to feel the blood moving."

watch "lost and delirious" if you havent.
and cry.

love
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long time [Oct. 14th, 2006|04:08 pm]
katie
ahh. the sweet click clickety of my fresh key board. virgin key board.
its been awhile. so be it. im OUT at school. it happened at warp speed,
on the devils time equiped with a 45' and a bitter/sweet hapiness.
i guess thats how it is. imperfect. quaint.

im feeling profound. im going to paint my wall now.
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continued [Sep. 15th, 2006|07:31 am]
katie
[PLACE |comp lab]
[IT FEELS |depressedrather blank w/ hint of macabr]

so this is where im at.
ft. collins means people, gay people,
events, gay events, things to do...
veronica *dreamy sigh*.
we moved form ft collins 8 almost 9 years ago.
it strange how much im itching to get back.
into civilization.

its raining. rain harbors all my emotions.
choice of music: knuckle down ani D
getting an andrew bird cd this weekend.
i need some new music... ani only covers SO
many emotions.

i gardened yesterday. we harvested 400 lbs of
squash. hope everyone here likes squash because that
is surely going to be the choice of food for the
next 3 weeks.
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new place [Sep. 14th, 2006|01:07 pm]
katie
mom wants to finish her degree in psychology.
that mean CSU... whih also means i get left here in the
roaring fork valley as a boarding student
during my hardest year of school... or
i go with her.

-OPTIONS FOR SCHOOLS-
Pudre (student pop. 1500)
Pioneer (student pop. 90-100)
Frontier (syudent pop. 90-100)

-LIVING SITUATION-
mom kicks dad out of the house we own in ft. collins
(he gets apartment)







will finish at later date
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(no subject) [Sep. 7th, 2006|07:41 am]
katie
[PLACE |barn]

this is to finish my last post...
the new kid a gay, freshman, and has a boyfriend
back in chicago. his parents sent him
here for degayification. ooops... he met me.

*smiles devious "im going to take him to all the gay pride events i can" smile*

happy... very happy
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(no subject) [Sep. 6th, 2006|11:13 am]
katie
yesterday was the first day of the "great
ideas seminar". 25 sudents from 5 schools.
we were asked to say who we were, where we
were from and the most important thing
to us. I said human rights... specifically
gay rights. got it on the table day numero
uno. after class the girl named meghan started
talking to me. the end result... shes gay.

so at study hall of course dana (my love) was
on duty. so i go and get algebra help. dana says
to me "oh the new kid... you are gonna like him."
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(no subject) [Sep. 5th, 2006|07:39 am]
katie
[PLACE |barn... the comp lab]
[IT FEELS |drunkah ah ah]

cold yerba matte and under cooked hash browns and eggs w/ ketchup for breakfast.
yummy... cant you sense the enthusiasm?
i succesfully gelled my hair this morning.
anotother turning point in my life.
anyway i have drawing and painting.
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